Today an Arizona resident and politician was shot in the head. It was an act of pure hatred and malice. Last night I was expressing to Michael how overwhelmed I am with the state of the world sometimes. There is news of tragedy everywhere I turn and people not upholding values that I find so important in this being human. Sorry to be a downer, but I am deeply effected by Representative Giffords shot to the head and the attack on the people of Tucson today. I took a shower late tonight and in there the death of the 9 old girl from the same attacker hit me hard. My thoughts automatically turn to her parents and the loss and heartbreak they are experiencing right now. My thoughts turn to Gabrielle's parents and family too. We all have family, we all have someone who loves us, we all have someone to love. These losses and tragedies hit me to my core. I see the world through different eyes now that I am a momma. I have always been a sensitive person and not tolerant of violence, but becoming a mom has heightened that sensitivity. My tolerance for violence is at a low point. I do not think Michael understands this part of me. I was talking to him about the little girl tonight and he just said "I have nothing to say," and walked away. He internalizes his emotions and I do not, so it is hard to know where he is at.
When Aven wakes up tonight to nurse, even though I will be tired and groggy, I will be so thankful to have her in my arms, happily bonded to her momma, eating and dreaming sweet. My tears fall for my neighbors and friends in Tucson and my prayers go out to all I love and know.
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